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My baby and I were talking the other night with a mutual friend and the conversation went from disability and taxes to Disney World. We've just started requesting time off for the next year at my full-time job, and I was saying that Adam's favourite time of the year is Halloween (for obvious reasons). The conversation turned to discussing an 'adult' trip to Disney World, and it looks like Adam's pretty serious about wanting to go for his birthday next year! So maybe next year we'll be sporting mouse ears and stalking Captain Jack Sparrow!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!!!!

I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH!!!!

NOW LET'S GET NAKED!

Either bold or italicize the statements that pertain to you.



Appearance

I am shorter than 5'4.
I think I'm ugly sometimes.
I have many scars.
Tan easily.
Wish my hair was a different color.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have a tattoo.
I am self-conscious about my appearance.
I have/I've had braces.
I wear/wore glasses.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
I have more than 2 piercings.
I have piercings in places besides my ears.
I have freckles.


Family Home/Life

I've sworn at my parents.
I've run away from home.
I've been kicked out of the house.
My biological parents are together.
I have a sibling less than one year old.
I want to have kids someday.
I've had children.
I've lost a child.


School/Work

I'm in school.
I've fallen asleep at work/school.
I almost always do my homework.
I've missed a week or more of school.
I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
I failed more than 1 class last year.
I have a job.
I've had a job for at least 2 years.
I've stolen something from my job.


Embarrassment

I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
Disney movies still make me cry.
I've snorted while laughing.
I've laughed so hard I've cried.
I've glued my hand to something.
I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.


Health

I was born with a disease/impairment.
I've gotten stitches.
I've broken a bone.
I've had my tonsils removed.
I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
I had a serious surgery.
I've had chicken pox.


Traveling

I've been on a plane.
I've been to the UK.
I've been to Spain.
I've been to France.
I've been to Russia.
I've been to Finland.
I've been to Asia.
I've been to Africa.


Experiences

I've seen a shooting star.
I've wished on a shooting star.
I've seen a meteor shower.
I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
I've played a prank on someone.
I've ridden in a taxi.
I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
I've eaten Sushi.
I've been snowboarding.


Relationships

I'm single.
I'm in a relationship.
I'm engaged.
I'm married.
I'm currently in the middle of a divorce.
I've gone on a blind date.
I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
I miss someone right now.
I have a fear of abandonment.
I've gotten divorced.
I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
I've kept something from a past relationship.
I have an ex I don't think I'll ever get over.


Sexuality

I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
I've had a crush on a teacher.
I am a cuddler.
I've been kissed in the rain.
I've made out with my best friend.
I've made out with someone who I wasn't dating.
I've hugged a stranger.
I have kissed a stranger.


Honesty/Crime

I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
I've snuck out of my house.
I have lied to my parents about where I am.
I am keeping a secret from the world.
I've cheated while playing a game.
I've cheated on a test.
I've been suspended from school.
I've witnessed a crime.
I've been in a fist fight.
I've been arrested.
I've shoplifted.


Drugs/Alcohol

I regularly drink.
I've passed out from drinking.
I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
I can't swallow pills.
I can swallow about 5 pills at a time, no problem.
I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
I shut others out when I'm depressed.
I take anti-depressants.
I'm anorexic or bulimic.
I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
I've hurt myself on purpose.
I'm addicted to self injury.
I've woken up crying.


Death & Suicide

I'm afraid of dying.
I hate funerals.
I've seen someone dying.
Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
Someone close to me has committed suicide.
I've planned my own suicide.
I've attempted suicide.
I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism

I own over 5 rap hip-hop CDs.
I own an iPod or MP3 player.
I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
I own something from Gap.
I own something from American Eagle.
I own something from Gucci.
I own something I got on e-Bay.
I own something from Levi's.
I buy more than half my clothes at Wal-Mart.

 Ich bin nich' ich by Tokio Hotel from Schrei so laut du kannst (Rating: 0)

I'm up at 6 am on a Saturday.

I'm up at 6:42 on a Saturday, showered and awake, on a bloody Saturday.

I have traffic school today. Ye Gods, Why!?







Oh right, I was pulled for speeding.

Coffee. I need coffee.

Dear Cafpow, why can't you be a real drink??

How come after I use a baby wipe to wipe something sticky off my hands, my fingers feel stickier than before!?

We're going to go get his laptop tomorrow. That is, if he can stop crying tears of ABSOLUTE FUCING HAPPINESS!!!

Countdown until Adam realizes what I did to his journal.


In 10...

9...


8...

7...

6...

5...

I actually have no update, I just wanted to post something. ROFL.

I fell asleep during an hour long benefits meeting at work yesterday. I woke up somewhere between the Vision Plan and Long Term life insurance. To give us an example on the difference between a medical and ocular issue with the eye (so we know which insurance to use), the speaker said "I've cut my cornea several times, so that would be medical."

....Cut her cornea? Whut? Sorry, did you let your cat get too close to your FACE??

Yeeeeaaah, that's just. Im...not even going to go there.

I must run, 'tis time to go to the office.

P.S. I need to update these icons. Oh Adaaaaaaam!

H3LO MAH NM3 SI DAVID BLAKWEL AND IMM USNG AN ONLIEN TRANSLA2R 2 WRIET THIS!!!!1! WTF IVE STAEYD UP AS LONG AS I CAN BUT IMM T3H SLEPY
IMA CRAWL IN2 BD AND SET MAH ALARM FOR 3ARLEY SO I CAN MAEK UES OF MAH DAY OF FROM WORK!!111!!!1 OMG LOL IMA HAEV A SAD WHEN I HAEV 2 GO BAK 2 WORK ON TUESDAY
IMA ALSO FUK MAH HUSBAND BFOR3 HE GO3S 2 WORK!1111! OMG LOL = D

Dramaz, we has them.

Actually, I think things could be a lot worse, and in fact, I've seen it worse. Yes, my Adam is a bit crazy!go-nuts! with the HiH comm dramallamas, but I can't blame him after hearing about a week's worth of complaints/venting/gossip/random trviia/random comments. It wasn't a week consecutive, but I'm sure if I added up all the hours my poor baby has fretted, it would equal a week.

Me, personally, I haven't really been interested in any lj communities related to harry potter since on or around 2006. I pretty much don't have the time to dedicate to it like Adam does, although I could make the time if I really wanted to. I think I just don't have the interest, or as much interest as Adam does. But I'm not going to deny him his hobby. About 80% of the time, he's loving it, and when he's happy, I'm happy. We both have addictive personalities, and it never once crossed my mind if the HiH thing is healthy or not, and frankly, I don't want to think about it that way. It's his hobby, his baby, and he'll get out of it as much or as little as he wants.

It doesn't mean I like the bullshit that people give him, and there have been moments where I wished LJ had addresses so I could find these people and kick their asses a la Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back.

So, between working a mindless job and fretting over coupons, not to mention planning a getaway for Thanksgiving in November for me and my baby, I've been keeping myself occupied. I'm loving Netflix with it's online video streaming, and I've become hooked on NCIS and Big Brother 11. I have to admit, I do like the American version over the UK's, which was cancelled anyways.

And I have to interrupt here and say that I'm watching "How's It Made," and it's about DONUTS! DOOOOONUUUUUTS! I fucking want some donuts right now. But I want the Krispy Kreme brand, because I fucking love watching them get made. I'm like a five year old all over again.

I also have been watching The Legendary Adventures of Hercules. Yeah, the one with Kevin Sorbo. I watched a handful of eps last decade, and now I'm trying to watch it from beginning to end, and oh man, I LOVE it! My sister-in-law (who works an eerily similar schedule to me) logs in using my account, and she to have started watching Herc. She's in love with any episode involving the centaurs or Aphrodite.

She also agreed with me that Cupid was hot in the Season 3 ep he was in. Psyche was cute, but Cupid, yee gods...









Oh my dear, dear Karl Urban, if I wasn't married already...well..



Let's just say you'd be TROUBLE...and you'd be wearing that leather outfit more often, mm.

Donuts, a hot actor, and my baby sleeping, completely unaware of how horny his hubby is right now. Well, I'm about to go take care of that in a moment, but to sum up...mmm, I'm having a good late night.

Youch.

I just checked myself out in the mirror, and I have these scratches on my upper chest, by my sternum. They look like fingernail scratches.

Adam, what did you DO to me last night as I slept!?

I like making lists.

Here is a list of the most recent movies I've watched recently:

The Adventures of Priscilla, Queen of the Desert
National Treasure: Book of Secrets
Mrs. Brown
Unbreakable
Blow Dry
1984
Meet the Robinsons
Ratatouille

Becoming Jane (although I didn't finish it. I couldn't stop gagging at Anne Hathaway's horrible faux British accent. Stick to movies about fashion madams, and Get Smart.)

Around the World (Which proved to be another gag fest with the campy Grease high school faux love rip off.)

Sweeney Todd
Lord of War
Planet of the Apes (The Tim Burton version)
Memoirs of a Geisha



I wonder what I'll watch this week.

Getting ready to leave for airport.

Adam is still asleep, and very cute.

I'm wondering if Twitter is worth it, despite not knowing anyone on it except for celebrities who would never talk to me.

Does it cost anything??

I have a subscription to a music service, and I'm sharing my latest downloads. Enjoy! All are .mp3 format.

This post contains a wide rage of genres, styles, and tastes. I wanted to both share and introduce folks to new and interesting things.

I've had to put the majority bulk of this post behind cuts due to the heavy album cover/image use. Apologies ahead of time.

Enjoy!

-dxb

( +7 FULL ALBUMS : Opium Jukebox's Music to Download Pornography By, Angels and Agony's Unison, Shin'chi Yuize's The Japense Koto, The Sixteen's Treasures of Tudor England, The Dark Romantic's Some Midight Kiss. Clan of Xymox's Clan of Xymox, The Dream's In This Moment  )

( +74 songs: Travel House (5), The Black Mages (20), Nostefaru (1), Rowland S. Howard (1), Dechen Shak-Dagsay (1), Modern English (1), Spoon (26), The Tiger Lillies (1), Eva O. (2), The Danse Society (3), Toru Takemiteu (2) SOW (2) Bauhaus (9) )

Comments are not nessary but appreciated!

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We're not going to talk about how shitty things have become.

We're not going to talk about how we can't afford two grand for a new computer, the freezing of pay raises, incentive payouts, forced reduction in work hours, overtime without pay, and the slow death of our ability to keep our spirits up and be positive about everything.

We want to ignore it all and prey that it will all just go away or blow over, and if we try really hard, we might even be able to convince ourselves and believe it as truth, even if its not. Its like truly believing that Santa Clause will bring you gifts, even though you know he doesn't exist.

We don't want to admit that we don't want to deal. I've learned the hard way through difficult and painful arguements, and tonight was one more, that its better to just not talk about it, or even think about it. There's too much stress, and we're just adding onto the weight of it by going after each other with venom, taking all the shit out on each other like we have been doing.

I wish I could solve everything with the wave of a magic wand like in the Harry Potter novels (an analogy I can use since Adam is so obsessed with them.) But I can't, and I'm at the point where I'm too tired to create waves by addressing the problem and thinking of could haves and should haves.

And I'm thinking I'm not the only one, of the people we know and are close to, who are thinking something similar. I learned tonight by taking that bitter pill that raising issues of what could have been done or said isn't helpful but hindering, despite the fact that the current end results are bad. Really bad.

I'm not going to get into any details, but I just wanted to write smething out as a way to let out some of this built up stress from the moment.

If only sex solved all problems.

Adam got a new part-time day job yesterday.

Is it Friday already? Gah. I was offered mucho overtime thanks to a back log of processing work thanks to the skeleton crew that worked when about 95% of dumb fucks decided they can't drive in half melted snow. Or mostly melted snow, whatever. I've made buckus of money, but I'm nackered. I had absolutely zero down time today (yesterday) as I went from office to club to home. Its now 4 am, and I have exactly three and a half hours before I must put on my leash tie and do it all over again.

Joy.

Adam, your job better come with heavily discounted coffee (possibly even free coffee) for your hard working husband, yes?

And maybe a scone or five??

P.S. I still have no idea who the hell..or rather, what the hell, you're venting about in your entry. If this is some livejournal HiH schenanigans, then I'm better off not knowing. And chances are, as soon as you do tell me, I'm just going to forget.

The clock is frozen in the tower,


The thickening fog with sooty smell


Has blanketed the motor power


Which turns the London streets to hell;


And footsteps with their lonely sound


Intensify the silence round.

I haven't hope. I haven't faith.


I live two lives and sometimes three.


The lives I live make life a death


For those who have to live with me.


Knowing the virtues that I lack,


I pat myself upon the back.

With breastplate of self-righteousness


And shoes of smugness on my feet,


Before the urge in me grows less


I hurry off to make retreat.


For somewhere, somewhere, burns a light


To lead me out into the night.

It glitters icy, thin and plain,


And leads me down to Waterloo-


Into a warm electric train


Which travels sorry Surrey through


And crystal-hung, the clumps of pine


Stand deadly still beside the line.

- John Betjeman

I didn't know this existed until just now. Now I'm actually considering it:

http://www.noblecollection.com/catalog/product.cfm?id=NN8133&catid=21

Although I'm not overwhelmed by it nearly as much as the fake locket, by the ring might hold Adam's fancy:

http://www.noblecollection.com/catalog/product.cfm?id=NN8177&catid=21

And UPS ground decided NOT to deliver Mike's gift today. Of course its all my fault, and I've been worrying about it all evening.

I'm not exactly sure what the point of this meme is.

x= 1 point

British
[x] You drink a lot of tea.
[x] You know what a brolly is.
[ ] Deal or No Deal has taken over your life.
[ ] You wanted Ben to win X Factor.
[x] You use the word "bugger"or the phrase "bloody hell."
[x] Fish and Chips are yummy.
[ x] You can eat a Full English Breakfast.
[ ] You dislike emos almost as much as you dislike chavs.
[x] Its football...not soccer.
Total: 6

Australian
[x] You wear flip flops all year.
[ ] You call flipflops thongs not flip flops.
[x] You love a backyard barbie.
[x] You know a barbie is not a doll.
[x] You love the beach.
[x] Sometimes you swear without realizing.
[ ] You're a sports fanatic.
[ ] You are tanned.
[ ] You're a bit of a bogan.
[x] You have an australian something
Total: 6

Italian
[x] The Sopranos is a great show.
[ ] Your last name ends in a vowel.
[x] Your grandmother makes her own sauces.
[x] You know how a real meatball tastes.
[x] You know Italian songs.
[x] You have dark hair and dark eye color.
[x] You speak some italian.
[ ] You are under 5'10''
[x] You know what an italian horn is
[x] Pizza/spaghetti is the best food in the world.
[x] You talk with your hands.
Total: 9

Spanish
[ ] You say member instead of Remember.
[ ] You speak spanish or some.
[ ] You like tacos.
[ ] YoU TyPe lIkE ThIs On Da CoMpUtEr.
[ ] You are dark skinned.
[x] You know what a Puta is.
[ ] You talk fast occasionally.
[ ] You have had highlights or have dyed your hair.
[x] You know what platanos are.
Total: 2

Russian
[x] You say villian as: Vee-lon.
[ ] You get short tempered.
[x] You know of somebody named natasha.
[ ] You get cold easily.
[x] Rain is fun for you.
[ ] You get into contests all the time.
[x] You can easily make do with the cold weather.
Total: 4

Irish
[x] You think beer is the best.
[ ] You have a bad temper.
[ ] Your last name starts with a Mc, Murph, O', Fitz or ends with a ley, on, un, an, in, ry, ly, y, oo.
[ ] You have blue or green eyes.
[x] You like the color green.
[x] You have been to a st. pattys day party.
[ ] You have a family member from Ireland.
[ ] You have blonde hair.
[ ] You have/had freckles.
[x] Your family get togethers always include drinking and singing.
Total: 4

African American
[ ] You say nigga/nukka casually
[ ] You have nappy hair.
[ ] You like rap.
[x] You know how to shoot a gun.
[x] You think President George Walker Bush is racist.
[x] You like chicken.
[x] You like watermelon.
[x] You can dance.
[ ] You can 'sing' gospel.
Total: 5

Asian
[ ] You have slanty/small eyes.
[x] You like rice a lot.
[ ] You are good at math.
[x] You have played the piano.
[ ] You have family from asia.
[x] You laugh sometimes covering your mouth.
[ ] Most people think you're chinese.
[x] You call hurricanes typhoons.
[ ] You go to Baulko.
Total: 4

German
[x] You like bread.
[x] You think German Chocolate is good.
[ ] You Speak some German.
[x] You know what Schnitzel is.
[x] You hate it when stupid people call you a Nazi.
[x] You went to Pre-school.
[x] You're over 5'2".
Total: 6

Canadian
[ ] You like/play/played hockey.
[x] You love beer.
[ ] You say eh.
[x] You know what poutine is.
[x] You speak some french.
[ ] You love Tim Horton's.
[ ] At one point you lived in a farm house.
[ ] You watch/watched degrassi.
Total: 3

American
[ ] You hate foreigners.
[ ] You hate non - Christians.
[ ] You're lazy.
[ ] You are not cultured.
[ ] You hate abortion.
[ ] But love the death penalty.
[ ] You don't read.
[x] You shop at walmart.
[xxxxxx ] You think this survey is rather biased.
Total: 7

Actually, this was enjoyable.